Success

I was a freshman in high school when I received a message I interpreted as being I was expected to not succeed.

This is different from being not expected to succeed.

If you are not expected to succeed, it can be because you do not have the skills necessary to succeed.

If you are expected to not succeed it can be because you are expected to sabotage your success.

I became quite good at the latter.

I still have to fight that message all the time.

Clearing out these old messages takes time and work.

I hope I succeed.

TTYL,

Linda

2 thoughts on “Success”

  1. yes our messages from those young years, can weigh us down. Every time you try to out run them, some one/thing comes back to bite you. And when you do succeed, you then think it’s a fluke. I think you have to somehow just go with the “flow” – yours, not someone else.

  2. you have an innate intelligence! I never would have thought of that difference.
    the note that was often put on my report card… seemingly through most of so many schools… and through the years…
    “underachiever” and “she is not living up to her potential.”
    they knew nothing of my heart and my deep thoughts. they were going by what? numbers on tests?
    100’s consistently in English … Reading … etc. and frequent FAIL marks in math. the big glitch always.
    I wanted very little that other students wanted. I was CONTENT. an unknown quantity in our country.
    or at least seemingly so. with our constant talk and desires and grasping for everything under the sun!
    I must have been born an old soul. I’ve heard that before about people. I guess it fits me.

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